If anyone is keeping track, I'm 'out' as an atheist now. Not a big difference, but that's not my problem. Still not 'out' the way I'd like to be.
At work today, I was feeling kinda down in the dumps. I call it my 'monthly' haha, cuz I don't feel happy for about 24 hours and it happens maybe once a month. Anyway, there must have been 4 or 5 gay people come into my work today. I had no idea there were so many in this town.
One older Asian/Indian looking guy came in, and I could tell just by the way he talked. He bought a bunch of exercise magazines with the hot guys on the front, so it was obvious.
There was this other guy, I'm gunna call him 'mega-hot' for your sake. He was wearing this extremely tight shirt, sort of see through. It ended just past his navel, so there was a fist length gap showing his under tummy. He obviously went to the gym a lot, and his lips were shiny, so freaking hot. He must have been gay the way he moved.
Then this group of younger guys came in, one of which I have seen in the store a few times before, and already knew he was gay. I think he also has turrets syndrome because he twitches. But he came in to buy some fake finger-nails with his friends, and they were very flamboyant. I wanted to say something to them, to hint to them that I was one of them! But I don't know how. I don't act gay, dress gay, or talk gay, at least to my knowledge.
I have almost no real life friends, much less gay ones. I hate to sound all emo, I am really a very happy person besides this one needle in my side. I hate this bible belt town.


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